Just received an sms at 6.25pm from Boy informing me that they will be starting at a new place in Mohumad Sultan from tomorrow. Oh sad, that means they won't be singing at Blue Bar Bistro anymore. And I have no idea how to go to Cold News Room Bar (nor would I dare go by myself!). However, I promised to visit them next week. He really wanted me to go tomorrow, I guess, its nice to have friends around to support you when you start your gigs at a new place, new crowd! I hope lots of their loyal fans will be there to give them the usual cheers, applauds and support. I'd love to be there, but I can't make it tomorrow.
I really love their music. I've never heard music so nice and tight and voices blending so beautifully for live bands. They sing and play REALLY GOOD easy listening music in their special MOB arrangements, with just a Bass and 2 Acoustic guitars. Boy is amazing and most of the time I'm there I'll be gaping in amazement (in awe!) at his ability to play the guitar! I would find my head shaking in wonder and wishing I could play like that!! *Howl* Once they start to play, it is impossible for me to do anything else but listen with undivided attention. IT'S CAPTIVATING TO ME!!!! I really think everyone should go listen to them sing & play. MOB MOB NUMBER ONE!!!!!!
THOUGHTS OF THE DAY
Had to go to the Ministry of Manpower today due to work. Took a taxi from the office at Cross street, only to discover that MOM is so NEAR!!! Just within walking distance! O How embarassing, hur-hur, the trip cost me S$2.80 - no wonder the taxi driver is so cheerie! good thing it can be claimed back from the company. (*_* the dingbat strikes again!)
It's been some time since I last need to go to the MOM personally to process any EP or Immigration related matters, and the place is quite different now. I had a rather pleasant time there, and as I sat at the benches waiting for my queue number to be flashed, a sense of lonesomeness overcame me.... so I sent a few silly smses to friends to kill the lonely bug and boredom. Glad I have friends!
These few days have been rather moody and gloomy. And my mood swings to and fro, but staying mostly on the brooding end. Can't seem to lift my spirits nor feel my chirpy old self and was feeling lonesome quite a lot. I guess, in times like this, I need to hang out with other chirpy birdies to chirp again! At the present office, no one hardly talk to me. Neither do I go around chatting (waz busy trying to look busy, hur-hur), and no one here is able to really connect with my 'frequency' too! Sad. I'm just not my bubbly self at all!! The office is really so quiet most of the time, and the open concept is still something I'm not so used to. However, I'm glad I've been placed at a window corner where there's some privacy. I think this is the BEST desk in this office right now. ^__^.
Boy do I miss my ex-ex-office where my happy hilarious laughter resound in every corner, sometimes flowing out from my side of the office to the other wing. People are often happy to see me (at least I think so) and I'm never short of witty remarks or funny things to say. I was showered with favour & affection and feels completely at home. I enjoy the people who laughed at me and with me - man! even my silly corny lame jokes they'll dig. Haaaaaaahhhh.....
Met one of them near the office yesterday during lunch break, and it was really nice to hear her telling me that I'm getting prettier and I'm missed at the office - with me gone, probably there's no one who mucks around and talk nonsense, do silly things, laugh hilariously. Sad.
The 11 months past....
On my stroll back to the office from the MOM, I felt a sudden bulk of depression as I entertained thoughts telling me I am such a failure and such a loser in life. I seem to have let this whole year passed, never did finish what I've started nor pursue the goals or dreams of my life, especially after I've read how my blogger friend drives himself towards his goals and his tenacity and passion - I feel real ashamed of myself....... In fact, it seems I've degenerated in almost every area of my life! All which seemed hopeful and promising in the 1st part of the year had became such a disappointment in the end - I just feel so discouraged and deflated, and I know -- I give up on things too easily. Is there hope for one like me? In the areas of my Career, Love, Personal lifestyle, Spiritual life, Family, Friends, Health & Fitness, Finances ......... none look positive at all!
But that is NOT entirely TRUE!!!!
(yeah~SOMEONE PLEASE COME & GIVE THIS SILLY WOMAN A BIG TIGHT SLAP!)
As I brood further, there springs forth the brighter sunnier thoughts, and I realised that HEY!! in this year alone there're numerous breakthroughs and bold new steps I've taken which I ought to feel mighty proud of myself!!!! Stuff I've never dream of doing, stuff I've never done before nor have the courage to do so!!! For instance.....
1. I signed on with a dating agency for 6 blind dates
People usually do not believe me when I admit that I have never dated before in my life (except for one "match-making" session by an office colleague - attended by me and 4 others) - Well, no one has asked me out + I'm too shy (*KNS*) + closed/small social circle + too busy working + too bruddy fat (kekekeke...). Hence, this is really a brave new step for me to take - just heck!! (BRAVO!). In the past, if mum were to mention someone she'd like me to meet - or asking me to consider a cousin- I'll protest violently and show her my rainbow color! NEVER will I go for anything that is errrr... not spontanous... for I dreamt of meeting my guy under natural circumstances and getting swept off my feet by his gaze.... hur-hur.. how unrealistic. But, with a close buddy becoming almost a spokesperson for this agency and seeing the quality of guys she actually met through these arrangements, I thought to myself, why not? Try something new! So what if I don't end up with someone? I would still have "honed my skill" in dating and break out of my social shyness!! So i paid S$900 for a 6-dates package!!! (and I really regretted it now). However, I can't say that its total regrets, because the experiences so far really helped me to grow into a more matured and wholesome being. *_* It's time to grow up.
2. First blind date of my life
It doesn't take a genius to tell you that signing up with a "first date" dating agency= you get dates lah!
So, the first date came really quick, on the 2nd day I've signed up, I was already matched with someone to meet up with. I was given a brief profile of the guy (age, height, vocation, interests, what's he looking for) and time & place to meet. I was really nervous, but went for it. Glad I had my best friend and buddies mentally supporting and cheering me on. It turned out to be a semi-traumatic and hilarious experience. The good thing that I got out of this date is: I know what I don't want in a man. hur-hur-hur.... and I must learn to say "NO. It is not convenient" firmly. Also, no more compromise with the agency. When I say, no smoking, I should be firm enough to say, "Sorry!! no compromise".
3. Went on the FIRST real date of my life
Well, this is a result of Date#2 from the agency. The refined and nice-looking 42 yr old Marketing Director from the Medical Industry actually like me enough from the lunch date to acutally ASK ME OUT! It's a milestone in my life!! For the first time, a guy made me felt attractive and desirable....... haiz... I'll try to remember him for life for being the 1st guy who ever ask me out (errrr.... not considering those ah bengs who whistle and say 小姐，你很美，要不要去看电影，喝茶吃饭?....). We had a nice time - went for dinner and movie (and he was sweet and polite) and he sent me home all the way to the west, though he stayed in the east and was running a fever. Heh, a completely different experience from Date#1, haahaahaaa... Subsequently, we met for the 3rd time... and when he continued to ask me out again I sort of got freaked out and pull the plug. I even called the agency to put the dates on hold for 6 months (the maximum time you can put the contract on hold).
Oh, I regret being so panicky, but I had taken the dates and also the guy too seriously and failed to try to get to know him as a person. The thought that he might be looking to me as a potential mate really troubled me (*aiyo, I really so KNS KNS, hur-hur*). So I told him that I don't think we would work out and I don't want to waste his time. Hahaha.. of course, he got totally confused and probably disappointed - Hey, we've just gone out 3 times!! He's just trying to get to know me!!! and I already told him it won't work out. But at that time, I sort of used everything I've "read" from the 3 outings to "forecast" the possibilities. I felt that though he could love me dearly, but I might just be settling for him. (*KNS KNS KNS*)
Well, I'm a much more sensible and open person now (after being told off repeatedly by a very clever and matured friend). I've 'matured' and grown socially 'wiser' and I no longer will embrace dates with guys as meeting potential mates. Just get to know people for who they are and be friends, no expectations please. Have fun together, enjoy each other, most of all - enjoy yourself (O, silly me).
4. Made Cool New Friends!!!
With the lesson learnt from above point, I managed to apply it and was glad to have made a few nice new friends from different backgrounds! I'm a changed woman (and my best friend will probably say KNS under her sweet sweet breathe...)
And Oh yes... I discovered MSN chat and Yahoo Messenger (yeah... where have I been on earth?)... and made a couple of friends as well! I love MSN & YM!!!!
5. I started a BLOG!!!
Need I say more? *_*
6. Well, some other stuff I've done & experienced this year includes:
1- Bought my dream Mini-Ipod
2- Wrote a new song (have not written one since a long long while)
3- Participated in a 1,000 person-strong choir at the Indoor Stadium
4- Donated blood (also something not done for many years)
5- Went Hard rock cafe (Singapore!!! *wah-lau*)- 1st time for me & my buddy!
6- Ate the famous Hainanese chicken rice from Chatterbox (yeah, 1st time) - the red wine we drank that night was unforgettable.... Yellow-tail something- something ....yum yum..slurp~
7- Won free movie tickets from Starhub (I love starhub!)
8- Took Guitar lessons (struggling with the slash chords/open chords! Arrrgh!!)
9- Had my first temp job experience! (wah but quite humbling to be paid half of what I used to get.... but much is given, much is required. At least right now I'm quite relaxed and enjoying myself here!)
10- Went for Date#3 and had a great one hour chatting with the Teacher Guy over a drink! We will definitely stay in contact as friends. How wonderful! (by the way, I'm his final date - for the 12-date-package he signed up for. They have been matching him with ladies outside of his specification and asking him to compromise - and he's really pissed about it. Hey, he's paying $100 for each date and this is definitely not worth the money! He can't wait to get it over and done with - just like me!! I have 3 more to go @$150 per date!!! Arrrgh. Heh, at least we have quite a few things in common. But I'm glad he said meeting me was good closure, at last, someone decent. *_* nice of him)
Hmmmmmmmm...... looking at the above, I guess, my life has been rather interesting and wonderful this year! It doesn't seem so bad after all!
So STOP feeling sorry for yourself!!!
(*piak-piak*!)
There're still around 6 more weeks before the end of the year. There's still hope! I will try to make the most of of this short time to do as much as I can --e.g. Complete my bible reading plan (in 1 year), go to the gym and burn away 2 kgs (watch what I eat too), put in some more effort for the guitar lessons (just 2 more classes to go!) and catch up with some precious friends that I've been too busy feeling sorry for myself to contact. Soon, my new nephew is arriving (near christmas) and I will become an Aunt. I wonder how different will life be with a new baby in the family? (and I shall lovingly name him Titi/Tutu/Tata, heh-heh - my brother will be so irritated.)
Woohooooo! I feel happy again! ^_^ ... and I can't wait for Saturday to come. Gonna meet a wonderful new blogger friend who has been a true joy (and awe) to know!
Oh I love blogging. It's truly therapeutic for my soul. (I just hope it won't die a natural death.......... knowing me........err.. we'll see!)
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