26/11 . It finally crashed.

Sigh....
MY HARD DISK CRASHED.

Finally.

Strangely, I'm rather cool about it... when the boot-up kept prompting me for the HDD password. I don't feel concerned. What HDD password? And I feel no emotions.

And I know, my laptop has crashed on me.
And I know, I don't know what to do about it.
And I know, there will be inaction on my part.

Don't really feel the pain yet. Will come later, I guess, especially when I need some data and meet the reality that they are all gone. AUGH.

Why is my whole world falling apart?
Time for self-pity...
I'm falling apart... and now my laptop crashed... what's next?

Will have to spend the weekend without touching the computer. Feels handicapped.
Moreover, I need to print out the chord sheets for the guitar individual assessment, as well as listen to the mp3 file my classmate sent so I can play the styles and arrangements accordingly - this is punishment for waiting to do things/practise till last minute. Another one of my special talents.

No one will believe such a lame tale as - "Oh I didn't get to practise the 2 songs for the whole week because my laptop crashed." Even I won't believe it. hur-hur.. I could have printed it out from the office. I could have listened to the 2 songs during the week. Arrrrrghhh....

Well, life goes on.
And perhaps I can now finally go get my new laptop.
But it'll be beyond my means.
I was supposed to pay back mum the outstanding S$10,000 loan. After that, the earnings I received could then be saved up, and then I can get a new laptop.
That was supposed to happen probably in Q3 of 2006.
And I want to stay debt free.
My old Gateway was supposed to last me till then.
Sigh....


Well then, hopefully something can be done to revive my Gateway.
Actually, it's my brother's Gateway.

Why am I so cool and calm?
Well, I guess I couldn't get more depressed than I already was?!
Time to go uphill.

TIME TO GO UPHILL!!!