I am so pissed!! The FSOB did it again this time! He has let me down TWICE before, asking me out and either uncontactable on the day itself, or cancel off last minute. I am understanding. I am not an unreasonable person, but twice is enough! THIRD time? Moreover, adding insult to injury, I'm the one who ask him out, to buy him dinner for his birthday and it was agreed 1 week ago, confirmed 2 days beforehand. Hence, I would expect that any decent person would try to honour the appointment, right? If he has forgotten it due to the lack of confirmation or if it was miscommunication etc... I'm cool with it, but not when it was something which has been planned and confirmed and reconfirmed. Perhaps I really should not think nor hope that people in general are alike me. He actually sms to ask me what time to meet up tonite and have to meet clients at 9pm to discuss franchising, blah blah blah sorry he's the kind of guy that work takes precedence over private business blah blah.... What can I say? Sigh, I expected it!!!! I really am prepared that tonight is not gonna happen and INDEED!!!!!! So I told him to forget it, I'm not gonna rush thru dinner!!?? If it is not important to him then why should I compromise my dignity?? and I really really feel sorry for myself that I actually give people a third chance. FSOB!! FSOB!!!!! FSOB!!!!!!
I guess my dignity and ego is bruised. I feel insulted and I really need to look deeper why I feel so insulted and upset over it. Why aren't I cool with it? I guess the circumstances looked as though I'm so hard-up to meet him and have dinner!! I'm buying him dinner!! Does he think he's doing me a favour by squeezing a sorry 2 hours? If its an important business meeting, I wouldn't mind if he were to just let me know. I'm sure if the appointment is made with the clients in advance he can let me know and we can always reschedule, or if last minute, he can maybe have the consideration to check with me before committing to it??!!! Is it too much to expect? Am I being unreasonable? FSOB!! @#%*&#!! I really feel so upset I feel like crying but its all held up in the chest. I guess I was looking forward to having some fun and a nice evening perhaps, and its a big let down. But on second thoughts, there's no loss as well, in fact, I've just saved some dinner money. It's really just too bad! Sigh. He's not worth my time. He has just proven it 3 times. HE STOOD ME UP TWICE!!! And INSULTED ME on the 3rd time! It's my own fault. I open myself up to it. Now I've gotta lick my wounds. Stupid woman. Stupid! STUPID!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!
What a jerk. Well, men like him really made others look good. Sigh.. (moreover, he's not exactly pleasant to behold).
And I'm a foolish woman. Will be wiser, and will have to be more selective who I choose to go out with. Yeah. I'm sadder but wiser.
Perhaps, I really need to be EVEN more flexible and open to "last minute changes". I thought I'm already easy-going and flexible, but this really ... ugh.. don't know what to say.
GGGRRRRRrrrrrrrrRRrrrrrr ....I really need to release the swear words off my chest!
ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
You FSOB!!!!!! FAH!!!!!! GTH!!!!!!! FU!!! FU!!!!
OK, feel better now.
I know, swearing is not good and favourable image for a sweet woman like me.
GAH.
OK. Forgive and forget. I'm moving on.
He'll never hear from me again. YAH. Nor will I ever respond. Must not be soft-hearted. And I'm deleting him from my friendster account as well - so what if he was the one who invited me to be a "friend" to start me off in the first place. I'm making a critical evaluation and this will be my decision. Not gonna throw pearls to swine. Too drastic? I think not. I have been trampled over and I should have done this long ago. So sorry, Ray. So sorry. I regret taking you seriously. I've given you the benefit of a doubt and I'm disappointed. I really thought you are something more, and I really wanted to get to meet you and know you as a person. But not anymore. forget it. Sigh....
So I guess, gym for this evening then. Or home to do laundry. Yah, running out of fresh underwear. hur-hur.. Oh yes, perhaps to catch up on blogging. So many happy moments to record. ^_^
And I'm looking forward to Wednesday nite, gonna meet up with my buddies and people whom I enjoy very much. It's gonna be a great time!!!! Oh dear, please, let no one cancel on me again, I might not be able to take the blow! Oh heck, I'm not that weak either, I'll live. Just not so happily everafter for the week. *_*
Waw...Blogging is really therapeutic. My chest felt sooooooo much lighter and deflated now...
hahaha... boobs are beginning to droop..... ohh-ohhhh~ (inflate! inflate!!)
Monday, December 19, 2005
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Wow you was running the gauntlet of emotions,are you ok now?He sounds like a real jerk if you ask me,i hope he does not do that again.
Well its a lil late and wont help now but *hugs*...keep them in case it happens again you know.
I feel bad now too,i stood up a friend of mine when i had migraines or i was not up for a night out..no wonder she never spoke to me for like 3 weeks after each time...thank you for the insight.
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