Tuesday, December 20, 2005

20/12 . I protest!!!!!

I protest!!!!
I protest I protest I protest!!!!!
I PROTEST!!!

Just had an interesting conversation with someone who also likes the song "Natural Woman", and this person says, "You know it actually meant having sex right?"
HUH? What the...!!!!?

NO!!! NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Are you sure? No way!!! GEEEEEEEZZ!!!!

And of course I needed some convincing.

So the person tells me: .... yes, read carefully..'you make me feel good inside', whenever when the lyrics say 'you make me feel like a woman', it means that the man has aroused the woman till she really feels like a woman, got it? how to make a woman feel like a woman, my dear? when she reaches her climax lah... blah blah blah... and 'Oh, baby, what you've done to me Oooo you make me feel so good inside And I just want to be close to you You make me feel so alive'...what can make a person feel alive? (sex lah) blah blah blah...

AND I AM NOT CONVINCED. GAH. UGH!!!!!
But of course, I can't be sure what context the songwriter is using when she wrote this song!! Maybe she was really talking about having sex!!

And it reminds me of those times someone will come and tell me, e.g. that the nice old song "DREAM DREAM DREAM" is about masterbation. And the song "I Can't Fight This Feeling Any Longer" is about smoking cigarettes!!!! And I'm still in denial !!!!!!

That's NOT how I see it!!!!
And this is how I would relate to the song:

"You make me feel like a natural woman"...
I've always been very much a tomboy since primary school, under the influence of a tomboy classmate, and have always wished I'm a guy and not a gal. And even though, today, I've totally outgrown that, there's still "residual effects"..... In the way I walk, in the way I sit, in the way I wolf down my food, in the way I laughed out loud, in my mannerisms, my speech, or just my personal style of doing things, in the lack of feminine fashion sense, in many ways.... I feel 'fallen short' of being a real woman. I don't feel womanly enough, and most of the time, I don't feel I'm attractive nor sensual nor wonderful (heh, but alcohol helps), and it take conscious efforts to rise above my belittling and self-diminishing thoughts! Though I used to be proud that I'm not the typical weak whiney vain woman that'll squeal at every sighting of a rodent, lizard, spider, bug and worm, but there's a deep yearning that a man will come along and make me feel that I'm wonderful the way I am, that I'm fully attractive and fully a woman in his eyes, loving me as the person & the way I am, knowing my vulnerabilities, appreciating my complex inner beauty and wit and the silly things I say and do (heh :D)... the "just what I've been looking for" mix. That's a fantasy, of course. I used to wish some guy will sing "I've been waiting for a gal like you to come into my life.." Sigh....a sucker for romance. Hence, I look forward to meeting and be pursued by the guy who will, in his own sweet ways and own charm and 'magic', make me feel like a natural woman! To him!! And he don't have to be perfect! No one is perfect! Perhaps I could make him feel like a (er-hem) natural man too! Oh dear, GOD, please don't send me Ah Kua leh.... that'll be tough for me.. hahahaha I don't wanna feel like the 'man' instead. hahahhaa... Ok Ok.. be serious now.

"You make me feel so good inside... feel so alive.." ...
I feel, the "inside"- that's referrng to the soul! It's the heart feeling good and alive! Before meeting "him" (probably like before, like right now... current situation...), I've been lonesome, I've been feeling like I'm missing a leg, feeling so void of something, withering without the attention and care of someone special to me, going through life's storms alone...aching for someone to be intimate with... to lean on and share my life with... etc. and vice versa. But of course, I DO have fantastic friends and family whom I share my life's ups and downs with lah -- my life is not so pathetic lah, hahaha...and in fact, I'm very much blessed and loved and happy and whole and optimistic ... but only recent that I begin to have these feelings and longings in such an intense way....perhaps because it has just been so much falling downhill and rock-bottom dark days of disappointment and discouragement that I begin to sink sink sink...hur-hur.

SO, when & if the "he" comes along... and make me "feel so good inside"... "so alive"... it signifies that this man's entrance and presence in my life satisfies and brings life to the soul, the emotions,... brought joy, music, hope, laughter, excitement, anticipation, a looking forward to tomorrow, positive energy, sunshine, and even just mere companionship!!! The flower is no longer bowing its drooping head and withering... it is facing and busking in the kisses of the sun, it is blooming and releasing its fragrance and vibrant beauty and splendour! And I feel I've not set a tall order. I think it's all about 2 person getting attracted and connected to each other and growing in affection and love. :) OK, I guess, there will still be problems, but that's too advance for me right now. hahahaha.....

And ...
Sex is not everything.
But of course, hee hee... I look forward to it greatly. In fact, can't wait. But will wait....hee hee.. however apart from that, I look forward to holding hands and kissing and other acts of intimacy and the connections of body mind soul heart with this man who will come and win my heart, melt me down, sweep me off my feet! Haha... and at that time I'll still be able to sing "Natural Woman" in its every essense. Muahahahahhaha!! And I wish guys in Singapore will be like those rougues we see in old movies, who'll just grab the lady and kiss her passionately before she could think or react. And that'll probably happen only in the wildest fantasies! (but I guess, the lady gotta be attractive in the first place too...... *_* and the guy desirable.... hur-hur, so for me... TKK lah~)

And this is my stand. My defence. My perspective.
THERE!
Anyone care to comment?

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Well now phil is a lil bit of a rougue ,maybe he could sweep you off your feet,kiss you passionatly and make you er..melt hahaha.Of course that would involve him actually getting from his apartment and meeting you...

I think they were wrong about that song,just some dirty minded individuals way of viewing it.Its about making a person feel good about themselves in mind,body and spirit...who on earth told you it was about sex hahaha?