02/01 . New Friends, Old Friends

I think I have broken through my social shyness in meeting new people, and have been expanding my social circle. Just got to know another guy from Hi5, a friendship network an ex-colleague/friend recently invited me to join. (interested? let me know and I'll send you the invite).

Why are there so many guys by the name of Raymond? So far in my recent encounters, there are already 3 Rays (who are somewhat 'significant' friends), now a fourth. Anyway, he's "Rand" for short. And we chatted on MSN today. Quite fun chatting with him for more than an hour. Exchanged numbers and he's already sending sms and saying good nitez. (Hmmmm....... I've gotta be careful not to be swept away by the attention, reference point = Tim). We're gonna meet for dinner tomorrow (after his gym...... yes - he wanna go gym first before meeting me so that he "look good" hahahahaa... says that his stomach will look smaller after the workout), Hem-hem-hem... will be interesting to meet up with this guy! Heh....

Went to a BBQ at my friend's place in Clementi around 8pm. They are my friends cum ex-colleagues and this must be almost the 4th time I'm invited to join them for BBQ or outing. I've not been able to make it so far (heh-heh.... excuses excuses...). Surprisingly, I actually had a really nice time catching up with them and really glad I went (heh, was thinking of no-show again, feeling really lazy and I've always dreaded BBQs). The BBQ food was bearable, except for the Otah which was really fantastic! So I helped myself to a few. The fried rice ET bought was also delicious and I had about 5 servings, no wonder I was so bloated and almost couldn't breathe. After the kids and 'others' were gone, Betty & her husband stayed behind with ET & me, and we had some beers and red wine and chat chat chat... It was raining earlier and the night was really cool, with some drizzles and breeze. We chatted till about 10.45pm and left around 11pm. :-)

Awww... and I think to myself, these moments are so precious, and I am glad I had not given in to my laziness and dread for BBQs. As I always say, its not the food or the restaurant, it's whom you're with that counts. And I'm reminded that there are people in our lives who esteemed us and treasure us and valued our friendship more than we realised. And we should never take it for granted. This year, I will need to make it a point to recover, maintain or build these friendships with people around me. And I must really call up some of my old colleagues and friends whom I've promised to keep in touch but never did. I really meant it when I made those promises, and did stay in touch for a while, however, it just got lesser and lesser till forgotten. And yes I confess, I've been really lazy and self-centered.

But sometimes I wonder, do these people really bother about me too? Well, they've moved on with their lives too y'know, and probably it makes no difference to them if I'm actively in their lives. Hmmm..... I think it's so so so wrong in assuming things that way. Tsk tsk tsk... *shake head* Well then, it doesn't matter if people bothered, I'm just thinking too much eh? Anyway I am good at my "critical evaluations" and re-catorization and re-valuing of people and relationships, hahaha... and so if I did make the efforts to get in touch with these people again and got a lousy cold respond in return, I'll just ding them for good. At least I've tried. :)

Tomorrow is back to business as usual again - back to office. Will try to go gym after work. Oh yes, and had to remember to call Jitterbugs about the Salsa classes starting Jan 4th. Signing up with Shirl - Oh yes!!!! Was telling her I wanna do something new and different this year by maybe signing up for some lessons on photography or dancing, so immediately she asked if I wanna join her for Salsa lessons, I agreed immediately!! But~ she won't be able to make it to the first lesson (which is tomorrow - if we're able to get ourselves registered), and this means... I have to go alone. Oh duh.. feel nervous liao leh, hur-hur. Be brave! Be bold! Be thick skin!!! You're gonna be fine!! You're old enough to handle it!!! GO GO GAL!!!! *_* Heh, so proud of myself, *smug smug* - my New Year Resolutions already in action.

And awwwwww..... must watch the fat and carbo consumption. Drink more water. Try to eat breakfast. Sleep early (before 1am) heeheehee... (Oh dear, not yet chomp up the remaining yummy chocs I received from christmas! and those nice maple syrup candy chocolate coated peanuts... yum yum yum...)

Wow, I'm so glad I had a wonderful day again!! YES! Let it be another wonderful day ahead!!! and for everyday of the year!