23/01 . Yea, it's Bad News for me

At 3.30pm, my boss text me and asked me to join her for coffee in the conference room. Straight away I know what's it gonna be. And I braced myself for it (and made sure there's ample supply of tissue in my pocket.. ) and went in.

She was grim and started off by saying that this was really difficult for her and she have no idea how to deliver the news. She shut herself in the office whole morning and could not face me. She wants me to know that EVERYONE had a very good review of me - yes, including Scotty and Londonny!!!! - but the deciding point was that the other candidate had years of experience working in China, and with the new office opening up in China this year, that experience becomes a vital factor for considering the right person to hire. I fully accept that. Boss is so nice... she told me that even the Managing Director finds it hard "let me go" (huh? since when was he aware of my presence???) -- and she told me I can have the rest of the day off if I want to, because she knows this is difficult news to bear. She have also been "selling" me to the head hunter (MP) whom she was working with for getting candidates for the HC Ops position... and MP have a 6 months contract position with a client that they might want to consider me - hence I said, thanks, why not. So Boss will forward my resume to them. Boss also says that the Managing Director and herself will be most happy to be my referees for my future job - I think that is really so nice of them. It's nice of them to assure and affirm me that they are really more than pleased with my performance here, considering that these people are so high profile and top calibre folks. I feel flattered somehow....

So, I'll be here effectively till 17th Feb. 3 more weeks. And the new lady will start work probably 20th Feb. I hope I would have found something till then. If not, perhaps I'll loaf around at home, go gym, go for a sponsored holiday (Eee-hee-hee... anybody wanna sponsor me? For ladies, you have my enjoyable company, for guys perhaps a nice hug and kiss on the cheeks...?). In times like this, it'll be nice to have someone intimate who dotes on you.. but I'm greatly blessed by the nice encouraging sms'es that came to me from friends and families whom I've informed of the bad news. Thanks, you guys. Having you gave me meaning to live on. (hehehehehehe... ok ok, that is just some drama-mama KNS speech, hahahahaahah..... ). Seriously, thanks, for your support, cheers and concern. It helps.

Also, it's good that I've applied leave for this Wed-Fri. So I'll only be back tomorrow and and I'm off till next Tue. Boss say I can go off... maybe I should pay a visit to the gym. It's now 4.40pm, so I'll be able to enjoy some uncrowded moments. But I really have not much mood. Glad I have the blog, because it is therapeutic for me to write. Soothes me down.....

And yes, it's not the end of the world. I will cheer up..... soon. heh heh. Could feel that I need a good cry, yet there isn't enough emotions to help pour them out. I guess it's because I've been bracing myself for a week. And perhaps, no one close to me is by my side right now to help bring on the tears. It's amazing how you could hold on so strongly and crumble the moment your close buddy or family appear and the dams broke.

Sky is turning dark and looks like its gonna pour. Wow, how gloomy. It will be excellent to be caught in the pouring rain. Drama. So I guess I should make a move before it pours, I don't want to be stuck in this office. It'll be super miserable.... :o( Boo hooo hoooo...

Perhaps I should just go home. Go home and count money and budget and estimate the expenses etc. Can't go shopping because I'm not gonna have income soon.... Well.. maybe I'll have some income from CNY angpao money because I'm still single. hahahahaah..... that's the advantage of being single. But home will be such a depressing place to go to right now! I know I just want to sleep - my usual escapism route, or eat. Oh, I feel so lost.

I know!!!! I will go home and catch up on the blog "Talk Rock" by Rockson Takumi Tan, hahahahahaha.... This guy is so so so so funny!! I greatly recommend it for an amusing read if you don't mind vulgarities maximised. Start from the earliest archives. I get a kick out of his art and wit in using these choiced words so generously. Would love to see how he looks like one day, this mysterious beng and his horse. hahahahahahaha..... he really crack me up. Here's the link: www.rockson.blogspot.com

It's 5pm. Time to go.


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