03/09 . Cupcake & Donut : 1 month Anniversary

(WORK IN PROGRESS - TO BE CONTINUED)

This day of last month is the first time we met face to face - 3rd August 2006. It has been ONE MONTH since, but boy it had felt like 1 whole year!!!!!!!!!

The trip to meet him was a timely opportunity and filled with great anticipation amidst great impatience too! I had to fly to Norway for a business trip, and will stop over in London on my return trip for 3 days..... just to meet this man whom my heart belonged.

It was 10 July, 2 months ago, during a MSN chat that we discover our feelings and attractions for each other. During then I was still wrestling with him trying to keep a break of silence of 1 month with him till the dust settled blah blah blah bcos of Hani. We were chatting that night because of a terrible thing that happened to me when I was out on a date.. and was telling him how I felt when this guy held my hand when I did't want him to. I still remember when Cupcake asked.. "What will you do if I hold your hand?" .. and at that point, I felt such a thrill throughout my body and instantly blushed.. I replied in all honesty .. "I think I will melt...". I think we had a moment there. To me, that is the moment I know my feelings for him has crossed the line. And oh yea, it was a happy and exciting feeling though full of uncertainty. I remember I couldn't sleep due to excitement and bewilderment... wow... him? like me? Me? Really? why? ... and lots of other questions, and "LOVE IS IN THE AIR" the next few days and weeks that followed.

Before he goes to work he will get onto google and we will chat for 5-10 quick minutes before he goes off, and at night (after his work) we will meet again to chat for 1-2 hours. We managed to go on webcam once or twice and it was really precious moments. I look at him differently and my heart totally opened out to this man, this sweet sweet love of mine. :) We exchanged sms daily and every night before I sleep if we didn't chat till the wee hours. It was really sweet.

On the actual day of his birthday, 30 July 2006, I called him from the top of the Preikestolen (Pulpit Rock) in Norway, after a tormenting climb up with the sales team, and it was excruciating due to my knees pains. My knee joints have worn out hence it tends to inflame due to lack of shock absorbtion and might pinch the nerves. Hence the climb has been a torment once the pain started mid way through the climb. Ok back to the story... heeheee.. It was there that I managed to call through to his mobile and wished him happy birthday.... and it was there, for the first time, that I heard him say "I Love You" to me.... 600 meters above ground. It was most romantic, and I was an idiot. He said it right before I hang up, and when it dawned upon me that he had said it for the first time , I had already ended the call. Although on text we ever did say i love you to each other... but it's significant when he speak it to me. And I hope I will always remember this day. Yes, I love you too.. so much so much so much...

DAY 1 - 3 AUG 2006 THU

At the Airport..
I arrived at the airport early in the afternoon and sat waiting for him at a row of seats near the entrance. Wore the Tigger Cap I bought him for his birthday and sat there... killing time reading all his text messages, earnestly waiting for him. A man came and sat next to me, and when he sat down he accidentally kicked me. I didnt' bother, but when he kicked me again, I looked up, and hehehehehe..... Awwwwwwww it was PAUL!!!!!!!!! And he had the most beautiful bunch of flowers for me!!!! Yay! the first time any guy bought me flowers of love!!! WOW!!!! My heart melt, and it is all so romantic. Sighhhhhhh....

Then we went to get tickets and are soon on our way to Enfield by train. There was no distance between us and no awkwardness, maybe a tad of shyness, but all I could feel was sweetness. I can't remember what we talk about, but all I wanna do was to look at him and feel his presence. We reached Oakwood, and took a bus, and he brought me to the "Holtwhites Hotel" where I'll be staying for 2 nights, not too far from where he lived.

While walking to the hotel after we alighted the bus... we stopped to look at some flowers.. and that is when.. When he gave me a sweet little kiss on my lips. Mmmmmmm..... I can still remember the sweetness that filled my entire soul. My first kiss with him. Well, this is the beginning of all other kisses we had, some more deep and passionate, some light and tender and sweet. I miss his kisses so much. And yes, I miss kissing him.












Video of the birthday song I sang him..